I'm having a difficult time, friends. As I'm sure you've already surmised, PRH's grandmother passed away last week. It happened very quickly and has left us all feeling quite shaken. This month had already proven to be overwhelming...a few uncomfortable extended-family issues, EZ E started kindergarten, Kicky started preschool, I went back to work and am launching my book next week (and working on freelance projects), and we're still in the middle of a major property renovation. Add the death of a much-loved relative and WHOA! Insomnia, intermittent sobbing, and stress-eating have become the norm this past week. EZ E had an allergic reaction to something yesterday- he was absolutely covered in hives- and I almost lost my freaking mind!
How do you get yourself back on track after such a devastating loss? Honestly, it feels like I've forgotten how. Maybe a time machine? Maybe a tiny apartment without a lawn? OK...not really. I know that I just need to work harder and longer and put one foot in front of the other. On a particularly bumpy day of class, I tacked this 'barn roof' sign up above my desk at school. 'Barn roof' is my mantra, it acts as a reminder to keep motivated and to work hard for the things we want/need. I know that things will smooth out and I'm really looking forward to that. BARN ROOF!